Roller Coaster Riding

 

You're thinking "Why did she post a photo of a package of bagels?"  Ya, I know I did it there is a point to the photo.

So yesterday I went and ran some errands, I have a love/hate relationship with errands these days. I used to go through the stores saying Hi or good morning to everyone I saw, now days I admit I almost avoid eye contact incase I see someone I know and they stop me to say how sorry they are. Hey, I totally get it and I do appreciate it but then that grief that I had tucked inside gets a chance to leak out. There are some places in the store that I'm more vulnerable to that . The deli, where I always bought Anders a 4" thick chunk of Havarti cheese for his fancy danish sandwiches, Oranges for awhile there during Chemo he ate 8 of those clementines everyday, theres a few other spots too but this time it was the bagels that bit me. I love Cinnamon/Raisin he hated them so I never bought them. So when I picked them up I had to stop and take a few deep breaths. Silly thing to tear up over bagels...

It was a dry warmish day yesterday so with Anders talking in my ear I knew I should get the car washed. Thing is I HATE the car wash, all last year or so I was going alone but I would always call him while I was there his voice has ALWAYS calmed me. So yep I had to buckle up and deal with it. I survived to tell the story and I know every time I go it will get easier.  My stop at Agway to get grain, minerals, salt and birdseed had no issues as he rarely went into there with me.  

I came home put away the groceries and packed up another box of stuff, I'm glad I have over a month to do this as I still am freaking out over how the transition is all going to happen. 

Pack up current home in U haul , less the things the buyers said they'll keep thankfully my bed so I will have a place to sleep that night!  Go to closing on current home thankfully new owners say okay leave the u haul till you can move it. *insert heart here   Go to closing on land , move u haul to land , when will camper get there? All depends on the weather, If the weather is nasty thankfully I can just stay in it where it sits until Ryan can move it.  Once its there I need to build some nice wooden steps to make it easier to get in and out of it.  Plug it in to the cabins electric current and take a deep breath! Then I'll have an electrician put in a dedicated RV plug outside the cabin along with an outlet to plug in some lights I can hang around to light up the area in front of the cabin at night for when I need to bring out the dogs, and have Freds come up to hitch the big propane tank to the camper for my stove and space heater. I'll also need to build a roost for my little chickens and an area where then can get there food but the goats can't since they'll be in the same area for now.  Although once again new owners say I can leave them as long as I need to *insert another big heart here. All the while my brain thinks of this paragraph as until I'm there I will wonder...

My brain got a break for a bit though when my family came up and got a Christmas tree from my neighbor and I decided I would too since she sells them for $25.00 so it will make a good snack for the goats later , yes I'm going to move a Christmas tree.  First time I have decorated one for years though as the girls have usually have done it, it was my wonderful son in laws birthday yesterday though so they had things to do . <3  I picked the colored lights because they seem more cheery to me than straight white, I wanted them to twinkle but for some reason I couldn't find the twinkle bulbs.  I just picked the first 20 ornaments I grabbed out of the box in no particular order and put Captain bear and Anders santa hat on top. Looking at it actually makes me smile which is a great thing!

Big storm coming tonight I guess into tomorrow could get a ton of heavy snow so I'm going to take it easy as I'll be shoveling the deck a lot ....wheeeee!

One day at a time

So a week after Anders passed, a piece of property came up for sale on the same road my daughter and her family live on. It was interesting as it is on a road I've always loved and it had storage, a well, septic, electric and a rough apartment. Well I did make an offer on that land and we worked it out but during the house inspection we found a lot of issues, second to the fact that because it was vacant so long some one had decided to come along and broke in by ripping out an air conditioner left in a window, and they proceeded to rip out copper piping, the  heat was off so pipes burst and whalla no more apartment to live in. However it does still have all the other amenities so another deal was made and yes this is where I will be in the near future. Plenty of storage to keep all my belongings in the garage section since I have really downsized. It feels good to just keep whats important.  

There is also a handy spot for my little goats and chickens , I'll be lugging water from the Johnson spring until spring since I can't turn on the water there since the pipes were cut and I don't want to spend the money to heat it , however I may keep the wood stove burning in there maybe...as its only 350' in the apartment So you say, where will you live then? Whats your plan?

Here it is my future home! ( for now)

A 31' Nomad camper with bump out , sleeps six so plenty of room for me, my two dogs and three cats. I've joined two groups on facebook with people who live in these campers year round full time and learned a lot of things I can do to keep warm in the winter.  I look forward to the peace of winter, doing the chores of surviving , walking, reading , watching movies , snowshoeing and planning my future.

For now though, yesterday I spent cleaning out the drawers in the living room, listed a piece of furniture for sale ( someone coming to pick it up today!) I feel lucky that the people buying my house are going to keep some of the bigger pieces of furniture I have here, whew! Beds! My hand painted chairs, Tv yay! So here in the living room, just the couch, a table a few end tables and lamps and thats it for this room! Well a few boxes of stuff too can't wait til the house appraisal is done and I start putting everything in one room to figure out how big a van I need to move! 

Today I'm going to go through the stuff in the garage and run to the dump again....sounds like fun? Well its progress....Oh and the closing has been changed to the 15th and I begged the lawyer to figure out a way for both to happen on the same day he doesn't promise that will happen but the buyers have vowed to take care of the goats and chickens and let me park the u haul here until closing on the land ( my heart melts at ever kind gesture and it lets me know even further that I made the right choice on who would live here and take care of this property like we did) 

Today I'm going to replace a zipper in my Grand daughters coat, and clean out the drawers in the dining room, might make a trip to big lots to see if they have those good plastic storage boxes with lids that shut tight. Then a person comes at 2:00 to pick up that piece of furniture that even though I listed it this summer and no one wanted it, now because I listed it for almost nothing people are coming out of the woodwork wanting it and saying I didn't ask enough for it. Go figure.